I'm happy with the changes I've made with my life, my healthy choices and what I'm striving for. It's mildly paid off, though not like I'd like it to have. I make an effort, every day. I make choices everyday.
But I'm still human, so to go pants shopping with someone I know who makes no health effort, actually eats unhealthy [she hates me talking about healthy foods for too long, it makes her long for a cheeseburger/etc] and has managed to loose weight, and wears pants 4-5 sizes smaller than I. While she has never been as heavy as I have been, it's damned depressing. Especially since last time I was this weight, I was in a size smaller, and I'm not anywhere near being there.
I could be bloated, but I glanced at myself in the mirror today and I look like I did at the start of my challenge. I took day 15 pics and there was a difference. :(
It's mostly me and my frustration that I'm working hard, getting little reward, and someone I know doesn't and they do get reward.
Also, arms, stop being silly, I can see how cut you are on top, be taut on bottom tooooooo! [I've been reading too many memes on tumblr]
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Wednesday Weigh-in, Getting back on track
Today's Weight: 203.5
Difference: -3.5
Total Difference: -7.7
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There's still crud in my lungs, which means I need to take it easy while exercising.
Yesterday I started my job that I will have for the next few months. Last year I held this job for 2 weeks at the end of the season and I enjoyed it alot. However, reflecting back, I can tell I wasn't eating enough during my labor-intensive days. I think this contributed to my first tachycardia/arrhythmia event [and the exlax... let's not go there]. Which led me to making a semi-idiotic food choice for breakfast. I did not want any kind of repeat so I got a chili burrito. It was sinfully delicious, but I knew I should've picked something else. I will look at the menu online to find something a little more healthy.
I'm also excited because yesterday my email notification came saying my Jillian Kickboxing DVD is on it's way. Since the MIL's first month is going to be a a week longer than it should be, I have time to do the kick boxing on it's own. I find it funny how I'm now trying to figure out how to do all the programs I'd been planning on, now that I have the 3-month Body Revolution program to go through. I will be doing the kettle bell month after my BR is done, or maybe I can figure something new. I have tons of options so I can always do something. I'm liking being on programs right now, gives me something to look forward to. For some reason in my mind August is the cut off point. I'll be exercising then too, I plan on it for the rest of the year, well, life really but I'm thinking small-term right now. Maybe it's because I have a fitting in August.
Ok, enough rambling...
Difference: -3.5
Total Difference: -7.7
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There's still crud in my lungs, which means I need to take it easy while exercising.
Yesterday I started my job that I will have for the next few months. Last year I held this job for 2 weeks at the end of the season and I enjoyed it alot. However, reflecting back, I can tell I wasn't eating enough during my labor-intensive days. I think this contributed to my first tachycardia/arrhythmia event [and the exlax... let's not go there]. Which led me to making a semi-idiotic food choice for breakfast. I did not want any kind of repeat so I got a chili burrito. It was sinfully delicious, but I knew I should've picked something else. I will look at the menu online to find something a little more healthy.
I'm also excited because yesterday my email notification came saying my Jillian Kickboxing DVD is on it's way. Since the MIL's first month is going to be a a week longer than it should be, I have time to do the kick boxing on it's own. I find it funny how I'm now trying to figure out how to do all the programs I'd been planning on, now that I have the 3-month Body Revolution program to go through. I will be doing the kettle bell month after my BR is done, or maybe I can figure something new. I have tons of options so I can always do something. I'm liking being on programs right now, gives me something to look forward to. For some reason in my mind August is the cut off point. I'll be exercising then too, I plan on it for the rest of the year, well, life really but I'm thinking small-term right now. Maybe it's because I have a fitting in August.
Ok, enough rambling...
Monday, March 5, 2012
So...
My challenge has been extended 5 days to make up for the fact that I've been too sick to do them.
I'm not sure I'm 100% but it's driving me nuts not to exercise.
I'm not sure I'm 100% but it's driving me nuts not to exercise.
Friday, March 2, 2012
Still sick
and annoyed as hell about it. I normally don't stay sick for long. I feel well enough to exercise today, but I missed two days of the challenge, so I thought about how I'm going to make them up. I'm ok with missing 1 session and just making up 1 by doubling up sometime soon. This weekend will prove interesting since I will be going upstate to stay with some friends and be doing some wedding stuffs, But hopefully I can get it done.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Wednesday Weigh In, Sick
Today's Weight: 207.0
Difference: -2.7
Total Difference: -4.2
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I'm fully blown sick today. Yesterday I was feeling somewhat poorly, but not enough to stop me from exercising. Today, instead of a scratchy throat, I have a phlemy chest. Went walking with mom, and I thought I was going to die, the cold was hitting my throat and chest like a punch every time I inhaled. So I know when you have a respiratory sick you're not supposed to exercise, and damn does that bum me out. My mom pointed out that I didn't get sick on purpose, but I still feel like I somehow failed because this means I will not have done all 30 days. While I could extend this by 1 day [or however many I may need], it won't be 30 consecutive days. Humph. Curses, I say, damn body had to get sick.
Time to go make some tea, which strangely, sounds disgusting. Yep, I'm sick.
Difference: -2.7
Total Difference: -4.2
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I'm fully blown sick today. Yesterday I was feeling somewhat poorly, but not enough to stop me from exercising. Today, instead of a scratchy throat, I have a phlemy chest. Went walking with mom, and I thought I was going to die, the cold was hitting my throat and chest like a punch every time I inhaled. So I know when you have a respiratory sick you're not supposed to exercise, and damn does that bum me out. My mom pointed out that I didn't get sick on purpose, but I still feel like I somehow failed because this means I will not have done all 30 days. While I could extend this by 1 day [or however many I may need], it won't be 30 consecutive days. Humph. Curses, I say, damn body had to get sick.
Time to go make some tea, which strangely, sounds disgusting. Yep, I'm sick.
Monday, February 27, 2012
Hmmm
So I just reviewed the first 2 weeks of the Body Revolution DVDs, I look forward to doing this program. of course, I have only viewed 3 of the 15 DVDs, so I may eat my words later on. However, I still have a month before I start it. The MIL will do it first, giving my time to finish my shred challenge [14 more days, wth?] and do a couple of weeks of the Kickboxing.
The phases are set up very simply:
Week 1-2
Day 1: Front of Body workout [1]
Day 2: Back of Body Workout [2]
Day 3: Cardio
Day 4: Front of Body [1]
Day 5: Back of Body [2]
Day 6: Cardio
Day 7: Rest
Weeks 3-4
Day 1: Front of Body workout [3]
Day 2: Back of Body Workout [4]
Day 3: Cardio
Day 4: Front of Body [3]
Day 5: Back of Body [4]
Day 6: Cardio
Day 7: Rest
Week 1 of Phase 1 offers a kickstart metabolism week, in which you can do the cardio dvd every day that week [which means 2 times on cardio days]
I haven't thoroughly perused the diet plans, but I did read enough in the kickstart diet [which she warns you to only do once] to know it is not for me. Don't get me wrong, I have many of her recipes, and like them, but niacin free is hard to come by. Also, I do not believe in totally omitting alcohol from diets. If you're a wine drinker, wine with dinner is fine to me. 1-2 drinks [otherwise] a week is fine, because that's, oh what? Moderation. Alton Brown thinks so too. But the MIL is very into the kickstart diet so tonight we shall be having steak with spinach salad. Sounds good.
It's weird, in my Shred challenge, sometimes the modifications are harder for me to do then the full out move. Like level 2's chair squats with a v raise. When I was doing the modification, I couldn't make it through the 30 second sessions. But then I switched to the regular, and today I made it all the way through [yay me] In general, I feel a small raise in endurance, but I do not yet see a physical difference, nor do I feel one. Bummer. I shall finish and move on.
The phases are set up very simply:
Week 1-2
Day 1: Front of Body workout [1]
Day 2: Back of Body Workout [2]
Day 3: Cardio
Day 4: Front of Body [1]
Day 5: Back of Body [2]
Day 6: Cardio
Day 7: Rest
Weeks 3-4
Day 1: Front of Body workout [3]
Day 2: Back of Body Workout [4]
Day 3: Cardio
Day 4: Front of Body [3]
Day 5: Back of Body [4]
Day 6: Cardio
Day 7: Rest
Week 1 of Phase 1 offers a kickstart metabolism week, in which you can do the cardio dvd every day that week [which means 2 times on cardio days]
I haven't thoroughly perused the diet plans, but I did read enough in the kickstart diet [which she warns you to only do once] to know it is not for me. Don't get me wrong, I have many of her recipes, and like them, but niacin free is hard to come by. Also, I do not believe in totally omitting alcohol from diets. If you're a wine drinker, wine with dinner is fine to me. 1-2 drinks [otherwise] a week is fine, because that's, oh what? Moderation. Alton Brown thinks so too. But the MIL is very into the kickstart diet so tonight we shall be having steak with spinach salad. Sounds good.
It's weird, in my Shred challenge, sometimes the modifications are harder for me to do then the full out move. Like level 2's chair squats with a v raise. When I was doing the modification, I couldn't make it through the 30 second sessions. But then I switched to the regular, and today I made it all the way through [yay me] In general, I feel a small raise in endurance, but I do not yet see a physical difference, nor do I feel one. Bummer. I shall finish and move on.
Friday, February 24, 2012
Ramblings
Day 13 today. I'm looking forward to putting that dvd in and so dreading it. I'm looking forward to being doe for the day, covered in sweat, and knowing that I managed to stay committed to it one more day. However, pretty much since day one, I mutter at Jillian. Every time it's time to move on to the next move, I start groaning in the general direction of my tv, telling her no, you're going to make me do something I don't want to do. And then I do it. Right now, 18 more sessions seems like a long ass time. It's going to fly by, I know. Right now I just need to look at 7 more days of level two and seeing how well I improve.
On impulse yesterday in my favorite health food store [that I avoid because of price] I bought some chia seeds because I've been reading about them for awhile now and decided I wanted to try them. Google is a scary place, been trying to find some good things to do with them. Of course, google scared me earlier today because, as there seems to be 10,000 articles on why one should give up soda or diet soda, none of the articles had the 'aftereffect timeline' type thing I was looking for. I mean, smoking has a timeline for how your body reacts to no longer smoking. I want to know about not drinking diet coke. Hell, it's been 13 days since I've had a soda and I don't feel any better. All I feel are cravings when I see it in the fridge and I'm weary of needing to make more tea and don't want water. And don't even suggest crystal light, I might as well drink soda, it's got aspartame too.
My mouth feel many times better, but the healing time on one of the incision sites is longer than most for the fact that they had to cut cartilage to get the tooth out, and I cannot wait for the damn thing to heal up because the pain is annoying. It is manageable, but dangit! I want it to be done with already. Interestingly, they were not happy to find out I had been exercising, telling me it could've dislodged my blood clots, but they didn't have anything about it on the post-operative care sheet :/ annoying, but I can't do anything to change it now.
Off to eat tons of peppers and cottage cheese.
On impulse yesterday in my favorite health food store [that I avoid because of price] I bought some chia seeds because I've been reading about them for awhile now and decided I wanted to try them. Google is a scary place, been trying to find some good things to do with them. Of course, google scared me earlier today because, as there seems to be 10,000 articles on why one should give up soda or diet soda, none of the articles had the 'aftereffect timeline' type thing I was looking for. I mean, smoking has a timeline for how your body reacts to no longer smoking. I want to know about not drinking diet coke. Hell, it's been 13 days since I've had a soda and I don't feel any better. All I feel are cravings when I see it in the fridge and I'm weary of needing to make more tea and don't want water. And don't even suggest crystal light, I might as well drink soda, it's got aspartame too.
My mouth feel many times better, but the healing time on one of the incision sites is longer than most for the fact that they had to cut cartilage to get the tooth out, and I cannot wait for the damn thing to heal up because the pain is annoying. It is manageable, but dangit! I want it to be done with already. Interestingly, they were not happy to find out I had been exercising, telling me it could've dislodged my blood clots, but they didn't have anything about it on the post-operative care sheet :/ annoying, but I can't do anything to change it now.
Off to eat tons of peppers and cottage cheese.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Wednesday Weigh-in, Level 1 Summary
Today's Weight: 209.7
Difference: -1.1
Total Difference: -1.5
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Level 1 was a mix of moves that were easy for me and that I haven't done in forever and therefore kicked my ass. I still have the shin splints, so I ended up modifying the cardio moves somewhat. I think this may have detracted somewhat from calorie torching. For this level I did not completely meet my goal of days 6-10 being no modification days [injury mods not included]. Most of the moves I was able to go ahead and do unmodified, but push-ups? I'm sorry, I suck at them. I realized the second day I was doing them at a slow and steady pace that I was barely bending my arms, and that weight shift alone killed me. I decided I would continue those modified and become more proficient at those. I'm also considering learning pushups on my stability ball.
This is week 11, and well, time for no more excuses. I'm not losing weight because I'm doing something wrong. I can't keep saying I had lots of carbs the day before, or Vicodin backs me up and I had oral surgery and haven't had a regular BM since Tuesday 14th, etc. I don't know what, or how I'm screwing up so horribly. My diet isn't that terrible, I actually love my veggies and eat them regularly. Since I started working out I've worked out 3-5 hours a week. Sorry but that's not half-assing it. I do know that I am beyond pissed. I'm not trying to out-exercise a bad diet. I'm trying to maintain a good one. All I feel I've accomplished is bruising my forehead on the concrete wall I'm beating my head against. 4-lb yo-yo is supposed to be a plateua, not a near three month solid effort of healthier eating and exercising.
So my MIL has decided to get Jillian Michael's new program coming out, called Body Revolution. She wants us to do it one right after the other. It is a 90 day program and looks challenging and fun. And by fun I mean I will be yelling at Jillian while sweating copiously and grumbling the entire way through and then be thoroughly impressed with myself with being able to do new moves afterwards. It should be perfect timing after my scheduled month of kettle bells and Jillian Michael's new Kickboxing DVD [that I will be doing in conjunction with my last Bob Harper DVD purchase] I'm jazzed to have all this to look forward to. Also, may consider doing Insanity.
Also, yay me, as of today, 11 days with no soda. I miss it. However I got this tea and this tea while in epcot and can I just say? yummmmmmmmmy.
Difference: -1.1
Total Difference: -1.5
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Level 1 was a mix of moves that were easy for me and that I haven't done in forever and therefore kicked my ass. I still have the shin splints, so I ended up modifying the cardio moves somewhat. I think this may have detracted somewhat from calorie torching. For this level I did not completely meet my goal of days 6-10 being no modification days [injury mods not included]. Most of the moves I was able to go ahead and do unmodified, but push-ups? I'm sorry, I suck at them. I realized the second day I was doing them at a slow and steady pace that I was barely bending my arms, and that weight shift alone killed me. I decided I would continue those modified and become more proficient at those. I'm also considering learning pushups on my stability ball.
This is week 11, and well, time for no more excuses. I'm not losing weight because I'm doing something wrong. I can't keep saying I had lots of carbs the day before, or Vicodin backs me up and I had oral surgery and haven't had a regular BM since Tuesday 14th, etc. I don't know what, or how I'm screwing up so horribly. My diet isn't that terrible, I actually love my veggies and eat them regularly. Since I started working out I've worked out 3-5 hours a week. Sorry but that's not half-assing it. I do know that I am beyond pissed. I'm not trying to out-exercise a bad diet. I'm trying to maintain a good one. All I feel I've accomplished is bruising my forehead on the concrete wall I'm beating my head against. 4-lb yo-yo is supposed to be a plateua, not a near three month solid effort of healthier eating and exercising.
So my MIL has decided to get Jillian Michael's new program coming out, called Body Revolution. She wants us to do it one right after the other. It is a 90 day program and looks challenging and fun. And by fun I mean I will be yelling at Jillian while sweating copiously and grumbling the entire way through and then be thoroughly impressed with myself with being able to do new moves afterwards. It should be perfect timing after my scheduled month of kettle bells and Jillian Michael's new Kickboxing DVD [that I will be doing in conjunction with my last Bob Harper DVD purchase] I'm jazzed to have all this to look forward to. Also, may consider doing Insanity.
Also, yay me, as of today, 11 days with no soda. I miss it. However I got this tea and this tea while in epcot and can I just say? yummmmmmmmmy.
Friday, February 17, 2012
I guess I lied
Im seriously bumming right now that I could maintain my weight on vacation and im gaining like crazy on this new exercise program.
Can I have a tantrum now?
Can I have a tantrum now?
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Halfway through Level 1
So, today was day 5, and it was easier than it has been, but that may be because yesterday I did it without being able to drink water. I didn't end up getting to eat until about 4:30 yesterday, however as soon as they took me to Costco for my pain meds I was downing water like no ones business and making indecent noises the entire time because I was so damn thirsty. And I must've hit 'starvation mode' yesterday because I know I didn't hit 1200 calories before I passed out last night and I fluxed up 3 pounds this morning. Blargh. But I'm not hating myself for it or anything silly like that, I know weight fluxes, I usually check to see if I hydrated enough or had too much sodium the day before, etc. I have one day a week I count as my 'weight' for the week. And heck, most of the time I don't like that number because I have better ones other times during the week. I'm trying not to obsess about scale this time. I have a fitspiration folder on my computer that serves as my screen saver, and I'm always looking at the fitness section of Pinterest because it's helping keep y head in the right space this time around.
I know almost everybody thought I should take it easy today and not exercise, but it felt good to exercise. My swollen face didn't hurt more to do so, the only time it hurt was when I brushed it. Tomorrow should be interesting since my goal for each levels' day 6-10 was to not do the modifications with Anita and do everything full fledged. Now, some of it I look foreword to challenging myself on and to see how far I can go, like boy push-ups. I've been taking some alternate cardio moves during the video because it seems I gave myself a shin splint while sprinting at WDW and some of the cardio moves just hurt in the bad way. After the surgery drugs yesterday and ice and heat therapy to it after exercise yesterday the muscle seems very happy, but I still didn't push it today. I will see how it feels tomorrow and then go from there. My point with the 'leveling up' was to challenge myself, and push farther, but I've got to make sure to not cause more injuries. Those modifications are different.
and until Saturday, It's going to be difficult for me to tell if I'm hitting 90 degrees in my squats and lunges. I do know I'm not looking forward to the anterior raises all the way to my eyeballs instead of my shoulders. Those things kill my arms. Lately I've been alternating the arms depending on which leg is lunging.
We'll see how it all turns out for level 1 in another 5 days!
I know almost everybody thought I should take it easy today and not exercise, but it felt good to exercise. My swollen face didn't hurt more to do so, the only time it hurt was when I brushed it. Tomorrow should be interesting since my goal for each levels' day 6-10 was to not do the modifications with Anita and do everything full fledged. Now, some of it I look foreword to challenging myself on and to see how far I can go, like boy push-ups. I've been taking some alternate cardio moves during the video because it seems I gave myself a shin splint while sprinting at WDW and some of the cardio moves just hurt in the bad way. After the surgery drugs yesterday and ice and heat therapy to it after exercise yesterday the muscle seems very happy, but I still didn't push it today. I will see how it feels tomorrow and then go from there. My point with the 'leveling up' was to challenge myself, and push farther, but I've got to make sure to not cause more injuries. Those modifications are different.
and until Saturday, It's going to be difficult for me to tell if I'm hitting 90 degrees in my squats and lunges. I do know I'm not looking forward to the anterior raises all the way to my eyeballs instead of my shoulders. Those things kill my arms. Lately I've been alternating the arms depending on which leg is lunging.
We'll see how it all turns out for level 1 in another 5 days!
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