Ranty

I'm just annoyed.  I'm annoyed that when it comes to bmr,  I apparently need to become active, clean all day.  It's not enough that I try to eat healthfully or that I exercise and I eat at a deficit from  my bmr.  Exercise doesn't seem to count with most websites designed to help you lose the weight. I exercise 6 days out of the week.  I clean/do house hold chores 2-3 days a week. My weekend job calls for me to do a fair bit of walking. But I still am not doing enough.  I guess since it's time to reclaim my back yard again, I will have a reason to be active to a good part of the day.  Also, I will be cleaning out  the front half of my parent's garage next week. Hopefully it has some positive impact. Grrr.  I hate feeling like a fool, because I really thought I was doing better, but it turns out I'm not losing weight like I thought I should for a very good reason.  Because also, it feels like  the idea that exercising raises your overall metabolism, and therefore, how much you're burning while resting, to be complete bullshit.

excuse my pity party.

Confused, Bewildered....

I'm confused about which to choose, because it could be what's hindering me from any progress.
Part of livestrong.com's function is to take your height, current weight, weight goals, and give you a daily calorie goal. When I reset things a little while ago because I was restarting my health journey, on the menu that asks your activity level, I put myself at light activity.  I will share their definitions of the first 2 levels and my current dilemma:

Sedentary

Select if you work in an office or at home and sit most of the day. Even if you exercise a few times a week, you should track that information on separately on MyPlate

Light Activity

Select if you are on your feet throughout the day, at home or at work.

Now, I'm unemployed, as is a great deal of America, and definitely my state [and while I would love to have a job even flipping burgers, I don't speak Spanish so I'm not eligible for about 85% of the fast food jobs around here] . And since I lost my car 3-4 months ago, I'm at home most of the time. Now, there are days I'm doing not much, on my butt, doing internet-y type things and getting my exercise in for the day. There are other days where I spend a good deal of the day on my feet, doing laundry, dishes, taking out trash, picking up the house,  doing yard work, and getting my exercise in. So, when I clicked, I clicked on light.  My reasoning was if 3 days during the week when I'm at home I'm active,  and -12 days at the fiancees I was pretty active [cooking, cleaning, social stuff] that gives me 4-5 days of being active, and at the time I was, but things at my house have shifted to where I can't be as active as I'd like. My father is in the middle of some personal cleaning and reorganization projects that have spilled everywhere in the house. But I digress. When I first  got my calorie goal results, I was surprised, and happy. 1400ish? That sounded awesome. I didn't want to be restricted to 1200 calories like I had when I was on the cholesterol diet, it made me nutsy and feel like a failure everytime I did things right [lots of fiber, good protiens, etc]  and I would still feel starving at the end of the day. I also though, seeing that

1400, that there was no way they had subtracted 1000 calories off of my BMR, since last I had checked it was 1900 something. I figured they took 500 off and expected you to try and burn 500 every day through exercise. It had been awhile since I played with all the formulas and forgot all about the x1.2/1.375 etc.
They are also the only website to put activity levels like this,  because the others base it on how often you exercise .
So I'm wondering if I should tell it I'm a slug and only eat 1100 recommended, or if I should try to spend more time finding things to do around the house?

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ED: I've lowered it down to 1100. I will be cranky, I know, but house work only covers so much :|
Also, it's confusing, but the website has you eat the calories you burn. At first I found this confusing but since they've already taken out 7000 from your week for 2 lbs, which is the recommended safe loss, they seem to want you to not over do.
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So Jillian Michael's has a new workout out, what I believe to be a HIIT workout over at self.com, which I tried out yesterday. Boy howdy did I bust a sweat and fast. I also desperately wished I had a heart rate monitor, because wow was my heart pumping.  I think I need to hold off on doing that again for awhile, because I woke up to having very angry shoulders.

Have a good weekend everybody!

40 Weeks

Until I'm married. Yay!
Sometimes I wish losing weight really was no more than simple math.  Because if it were, I'd be at goal weight 2 weeks before my wedding. As is it, the [much] smaller goal I've set seems daunting and unattainable right now.

I have 69.5 lbs to lose to reach goal, so I need to burn 243250 = 38 weeks of hard work and always losing weight [of 2 lbs a week]

My goal of 30, because 30 seems attainable and only 10 more lbs than my lowest weight loss before I gained 20 back, is a total of  105000 calories = 15 weeks [@2lbs] [this is all just numbers in a perfect weight-loss world]

I have the feeling that 30 lbs is going to be more like 38 weeks. Now, since I already have my wedding dress, losing all of the weight I want to would not be the best idea since it can't be taken in that much.

I've gotten back into tea, which sounds like a phase but it's more I go through diet soda phases and return to tea and water. I have always loved tea and I'm drinking lots of green tea. Heck, I'm so excited that there are so many 'flavors' now.  I'm trying to eat more veggies [again] since I have a love of them, but a lack of car gets in the way of me grabbing more when we run out :(

Today I'm going to try out my new Yoga DVD Element Power Yoga which I'm very excited about. I have been rotating 2 dvds [and a book] for the last 3 weeks for my exercise, and it's good to feel my strength and endurance coming back. My other DVDs are Yoga for the Warrior and Yoga Meltdown, and the book is Slim Calm Sexy Yoga. Currently I've been shooting for doing the 15 minute ab workout on the days I do the Yoga meltdown, and a few sequences from the book, to total about 45-1:05 workout time spread over the day [the abs and book sequences at night and very relaxing and help me sleep well]. and on other days I shoot to do Yoga for the Warrior, which is an hour long. now I have the Element to add in variety and another hour long. There are some days where I only have time for  the 15 minute abs [which sounds lame, but 1, it's intense, and 2, at least I'm doing something to get my heart rate up], or only do the Yoga Meltdown without the abs and book in the evening. I've started tweeting my weight in the morning, which hasn't moved in the 3 weeks I've been working out 5 days a week. I'm also food diary-ing again over at livestrong.com again

I'm sure alot of you would like to argue and point out I'm not losing weight because yoga isn't for weight loss. This isn't true. There's various forms of yoga, some are more active and aerobic than others. Also Jillian? She does the yoga+aerobic movement [faster than most yoga classes] for those who don't have open schedules. I've used her yoga dvd's to lose weight before. Bob's too.  Because of my palpitations last[yikes] year I became hyper aware of my heart rate and everything I do in yoga raises it to the proper level, and you should see the sweat factor people.
I also found our recently when your muscles become more active and used they tend to retain more water than unused muscles.  Although, part of me has been hoping I'm replacing fat with muscle now that Im gaining some back....
Who knows :) I do know that I and going to keep going because I will always wonder if I don't try.
In February I'm going to start Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred and do it for 30 days, to mix things up. I'm hoping sometime later this year I will have lost enough weight to start running without the impact shredding my knees [my family and I suspect that playing ddr as heavy as I was on a hard surface instead of carpeting was what caused my knees problems]


Hope your new years are going well so far!